her dancing shadows

Saturday, August 13, 2005
8/13/2005 11:54:00 PM

move, moving, moved

hey ppl! i've moved to: http://resplendentkisses.blogspot.com/

dont leave, i'd go weak without you

sometimes i really feel ure snatching them away.
all of them.
im tired of it.

anyway, gotten my chinese results. ok, it suck like hell.
B3 with pass.
like wthell?
pass for oral?!
even adriel can get merit can, no offense, but i thought i cld at least get better than adriel. no offense agn.
if i got distinction. fuck. cld have gotten at least a A2. AT LEAST ok.
dammit.

trying to study. but no mood to do so.
whts happening to me?

dont leave, i'd go weak without you

Tuesday, August 09, 2005
8/09/2005 12:38:00 PM

pheee-eeu-wweet

woooohoooo! i got accepted by quest :D
WOOOWEE, YIPPEEE.
hahahha. =x

alright, anyway.
i dont know what to blog about.
but stupid yl wants me to blog so...
i guess i'l blog bout one unfortunate event that happened to me ytd....

and here it goes...

ytd
ym, yy, qazim, ans, jia lin, yl, faqeh and me went to marine parade library to study.
with qazim, yy, jia lin and me to a table.
the rest in random brownian motion. esp yl, who practically walk the whole library for fun or something.
anyhow, qazim kept teeasing yy about some random guy. then yy pretended to be angry.
so idiotic qazim took MY container of fox sweets, peering inside to look for yy's fav sweet colour. so, super me wanted to see who got her fav colour out first.. so qazim n i kinda reached for the container at the same time...
TADA, stupid qazim and his masculine strength overpowered mine.

AND then..

my leftie index finger got cut.
BRILLIANT.
so yl accompanied me to the toilet..
and yl the genius, got distracted by jialin's sudden appearance in the toilet and plastered the sticky part of the plaster to my cut.
BRILLIANT huh?

haha. so now, the cut is like black in colour. =/
weird.
my legs went all jelly whn the blood oozed out ytd in the library.
scary.
dont know how surgeons deal with that.
weirdos, they are

dont leave, i'd go weak without you

Monday, July 25, 2005
7/25/2005 07:33:00 PM

REJECTED, DEJECTED

one day, i was thinking: hey! why not try out modelling. to live my life to the fullest and do whtever i've always wanted to try.
SOOO... i wennt online, search for some modelling agencies.
went across QUEST, SHINE, ELITE n MANNEQUIN.
mannequin is like a freaking gd agency lah.
so i doubt i've any chance.
soo, next, i tried QUEST.
i applied online, sent in photos..
and they called me few mins later.
i was HYSTERICAL can?

yeah.. BUT i went for the interview today.. and SHUCKS.
doubt ive any chance already lah.
they say they'l call me.
which i doubt they will do so.

SO, here i am. being rejected and dejected.
but its okay.

i'l try...
again

dont leave, i'd go weak without you

Thursday, July 21, 2005
7/21/2005 03:46:00 PM

everyone thinks im strong, but im not. im really not

just read xw's and cg's blog entry bout their dad and mom respectively.
and both triggered my tearss..

i think everyone thought im strong, but im really not.
so many times i felt like giving up.
i felt like no one cares for me.
i know im wrong but it just feel so lonely sometimes.
being always alone at home.
i miss my mom...
and now my granny is going too..
why is life so unfair?
why have they both stopped fighting agst cancer?
i want my mom back.. i wanto hug her, to tell her how much i love her.
i dont rmb telling her that whn she was alive..
i spent half my life without her by my side, and it hurts.
ppl complain bout how naggy their parents are, how they wish they cld have more freedom..
but whts freedom to me when im all alone?
i dont want my granny to go as well..
she kept telling me she wants to give up, to join my mom in heaven.
but why cant she see that she shld fight agst it?
why cant she see that i still need her?
why cant she see.
tht im not strong?

why do ppl have to die?

its so unfair.

dont leave, i'd go weak without you